Day 194: 20 May 2026

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 Poem -- 


It’s the winding down of the day —
Little One’s asleep, breathing softly.
The books and toys are put away.

I am happy and content.
I am uncomfortable.

It’s a marvellous thing my body’s done
But when I look in the mirror
I’m still getting used to what it’s become.

I am tired.
I am awake.

There are moments in the day
When I just want an hour to myself.
But then, what would I actually do with it? I say.

I am growing.
I am alive.

Who am I now?
Sometimes I wonder.
A wife. A mother.
And me?

Nothing living stays the same.
And that’s true for me, too.

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